Jonathan Lim/

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11:47 PM

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

The story of a pencil and eraser.

As I was browsing through facebook, i came across this little post and wanted to share it out here...

Pencil: I'm sorry
Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong.
Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on).

Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day.

For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..."

This is to all the parents out there...

12:42 AM

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Forever.

Life has it many ways of playing it's tricks. Of course, it is never easy, and of course, not always enjoyable. Just when you feel as if you're at the top of the world, reality pulls you back down to the ground. Doubts never leaves the mind. Insecurity always lurking in the heart. But... this I do know, no matter what happens, you'll always be in my mind. In every corner, there, stashed the little pieces of my heart in a jar. I was once like that, broken, heart shattered on the floor because of my past. Thats when I met you, where you came along and picked up those little pieces of my heart and kept it in a jar no matter how small and fragile they were. Still fearful of the past, doubts crossed my mind, weather this is another game girls play. Every time you smile at me, a piece gets glued back together like a puzzle but every time you left, the glue wears off and those pieces would be scattered on the floor just the way you found them. Now, after all this while, after all we had been through, after all the memories and moments that was created, the puzzle is complete. As my love for you, it is complete. Distance will never separate us, Time will never separate us, People will never separate us and Hardships will never separate us. No matter what, you'll always be with me and me with you, because each and every one of those shattered pieces has your love in it as how I will always love you. You complete me.

Forever yours,

Jonathan Lim

10:37 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I love you, dad!

Dear dad,

I know how hard it was raising a child like me up. I know the hardships you went through that you kept in your heart. I still remember the time where you used to hug me and kiss me when I was just a baby. It may be just a hazy memory but at least I know that you love me deep down inside. You may not say "I love you" to me nowadays because of your thick ego of being a man, but I for one know how much I mean to you. I'm sad because I lost that one picture of you holding me in your arms, together with mom when I was a young kid, celebrating my birthday at grandma's. I appreciate everything you have done for me, even how small the deed may seem because it still means alot to me. I find it funny tho how after Yean(my 14years older sister), you wanted a son so badly and when I finally came out, I made all your hair white. LOL. Anyways, even though I do not say "thank you" that often doesn't mean that I do not appreciate everything you have done. I do, deep inside, I do but like you, I have my own ego. You know how the saying goes, "like father like son". Trust me dad, I can see how much you actually love me even if you don't verbally tell me that. Little things such as worrying about whether I have eaten or not, weather I can catch up with my studies, staying up just to pick me up from the KTM station. I know I may not be the ideal son you wanted, but I am doing my best now to be what you raised me up to be, a man. I'm sorry for all the arguments we had, I'm sorry I make you worry all the time, I'm sorry for not listening to you, I'm sorry it kills you to see me smoking. If I were to say sorry for everything I have done, I would take months for me to be done apologizing. Therefore, for today, I'd just like to say

"Happy Father's Day, you truly are the best dad a son could ever ask for. I love you, daddy."

3:39 AM

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Footsteps

Have you ever wondered how did you get here or even what have you been placed on this planet for? I do, all the time but some things, you just wont find the exact answers you're looking for. Life has funny ways of working, one minute you're so happy you can touch the sky, another minute, you're so down its as if you're stuck in quicksand. Life couldn't get any simpler as it can be, where things unexpected pops out from nowhere and bites you on the ass. Some people believe that everything happens for a reason, some people believe its God's will, some people don't even know what to believe in. Some questions even rocket scientist and doctors can't figure out the answer to. To me, I believe in living life how you get it and appreciate everything you have at this very moment before its too late to realize that its gone for good. Yes, I have regreted many decisions that I have made in the past and if I could, I would go back and undo it. But that just isn't how life works, isn't it? I mean, why cry over spilt milk when you can buy fresh new ones. Life has its ups and downs and sometimes it hits and you fall real hard. *whamp!* but what are you going to do about it? Pick yourself up or stay down and kiss the ground? I've learnt from my mistakes and it sure hurt like crap. Each time something wounds us and we get up, we grow stronger. I have from my past. That is why I'm taking this path which is move on and wish you the best. You're happy, I can see and who am I to take away that happiness from you? I have my own happiness to search for and its somewhere out there in the sand. It may not be an easy journey to let go of something I took so much effort to gain, but when its time to let go, its time to let go.
I've had this little card with me since I was a small boy and I don't know where it came from but its written...

"if you truly love something, set it free. If it comes back to you, its yours to keep. If it doesn't, it was never meant to be".

Although I'm gone, a promise is still a promise and I always keep my words. I'll watch over you and be there for you when you need me. It doesn't matter if you know it or if not, if its me in person or someone else. I'll keep my promises and I meant every "I Love You".
Take care.

11:40 PM

Monday, February 14, 2011

destiny

Have been such a long while since I've seen that beautiful face of hers smiling right back at me. Nothing could make me feel better. These few days have been a rocky road and things seems perfect while other moments it was going downhill. It hurts knowing what happened but I am willing to put all that in the past and start right from the start all over again. I can see changes, her sacrificing herself for me and giving more than she already can. I truly appreciate every moment spent with her as nobody else could take my breath away like she does. Nothing last forever but that is not what I am searching for. What I am searching for is someone who would truly love me back as how I love her then let faith and destiny take its course. Its not about living for things ahead, its not about searching high and low for someone to be your valentine, its about living for each moment you have with the one person you love and cherish the memories. Time is something that would not wait for any person, if it had, I would go back into time and made sure that I have not done the mistakes I had but that doesn't mean we can't make changes now.
Baby, I know things doesn't always go as it seems. I know that sometimes, we find it hard to even talk to each other. It doesn't really matter because all that is important that we go through it together. I may not be the person you are happiest with but this much I know, I'm the only person who could love you this much. <3

5:41 AM

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Going, Going, Gone

When you are in love, everything seems to last forever but when things are down, you fall and it seems like its impossible to get back up. Things just aren't always what they seem, thats what I've learn from 18years of break-ups. Getting from one relationship to another just like any typical guy. When we were young, the proudest thing we could say was that we had a gf/bf... but in the end, it all ends up in heartbreaks/sufferings/overall pain. Girls, a complex being. One moment they love you, the next moment they hate your guts. They can never be understood by men. They are so complex that it not only frustrates guys, but they even confuse themselves. Men can never understand what goes on in the head of a woman. All I can imagine is chaos and what not. Many of them can't even decide between 2 guys or even 3, which to choose even when its so bloody obvious which one truly loves and which just wants to get in her pants. Even so, they are not always to blame. One thing is that I really HATE people who can't handle or take a relationship seriously. I mean, why get into a relationship with 1 girl if you want to bang another? It causes so much drama and ruins so much for the next guy who could possible be "the one" because she would not trust guys the same anymore. I guess I'm the only fool who could still trust girls countless of times after being through so much crap. From now on, no more.

7 things a girl would say to end a relationship but still gets to a new one:
-"My parents found out"
-"I don't trust guys anymore, they're all the same"
-"I'm just not ready"
-"I have to concentrate on my future/exams"
-"I'm tired of relationships"
-"Lets take a break *after that runs off"
-"I'm sure you'll find someone better"
-"Lets just be friends"

6 things I truly hate in relationships:
-Guys/girls taking relationships as if its a game
-Guys with "itchy" dicks
-Girls who just can't stick to one
-When girls say they can't trust guys because of what happened in the past
-Guys who cries over break-ups because they couldn't handle theirs
-Guys who text other girls who are taken just because they couldn't keep theirs

New Year Resolution: Never trust another girl again.

11:57 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Sigh

Lost. I need you, but you are nowhere to be found. When I want to talk to you, you are too tired. When I wanna see you, you are too busy to bother about me. When you are with me, you have to go. What am I supposed to do when I always come last in your list of priorities? I feel as if I am invisible to you and at times, you don't even care. It hurts so bad its difficult to breathe. I am lost in a maze, not knowing where to go. Everywhere I turn, I see a wall. Every corner I go, its darkness. I just want to jump off a cliff and end all these pain.
I love you, even if you don't.

4:51 AM

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Love Everlasting

As each day passes I miss you more and more. Every moment we had is cherished as it plays back in my head over and over again. Honestly, you are the only one in my entire life who deserves and appreciates this much love. I have been searching all my life for someone like you and had given up till you walked into my life. A girl as amazing as you is truly hard to find. No matter how far apart we are, we stand strong and i know that we'll never fall apart. The distance between us is unmeasurable compared to the love we have for each other. I'm doing all I can now, to make sure that we would live happily ever after even if I have to bleed for it. You're all I want and all I need, to let go of you, I'd be a fool for losing you is the greatest disaster ever. Have faith in my baby, we'll make it through, together.
That's a promise.
I Love You. <3

4:21 AM

Sunday, September 26, 2010

the reason

I've never met anyone who could love me more than you do. You simply give me a reason to live in this life full of sufferings, with you, it seems as if the world is perfect. Sometimes I stop to wonder if I truly deserve someone like you. Someone as beautiful, as smart, as funny, as lovely as you are. I appreciate all the effort you have put into this relationship, I pray this never has to end. When things are down, seeing you brightens everything up. You are the reason for me finding the true meaning of life. Now that I've found you, I never wanna let go because losing you would be a terrible tragedy. Anyone to have you would be the luckiest person alive, and anyone who doesn't appreciate you is the biggest fool, because to lose you is as if to completely lose the feeling of happiness and joy. I know sometimes things just doesn't work out well, but that's just things I know we'll get through together. The more we grow through it, the stronger we'll become.

Thank you, for loving me.

*Plane crashes* a couple survives. Guy regains consciousness and wakes up the girl.

Girl asks, "are we in heaven?"

Guy replies, "looks more like hell."

Girl says, "I don't really care, as long as we're there together."

1:54 AM

Monday, September 20, 2010

fulfillments

Having you in my life is the most amazing thing any person could ever wish for. Every single night, I thank God for blessing me with you. Its as if He sent His angle down to earth to watch after me. Everyday, you never cease to take my breath away. Its just incredible the way you do the things you do. The moments we had together were truly lovely and thinkin' back about it is making me miss you more and more. I just hope that you'd feel the same way about me and that I'll be the one that who you'd feel most comfortable with.

I'll let these three words do the rest of the talking.
Michelle Chin, I love you. <3